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Ok I said it, I'm not ready for change. I'm not, I thought I
was, but I'm not. I am not ready to lose all of you. I mean what is going to
happen to me when there is no more Triad of Awesomeness, or the Weekenders, or
the Cool Kids. Who am I going to have fun with. Who is going to understand me
and accept me like all of you have? Who is going to be my best friend when I am
not around any of you guys? Every time I tell people how much I am going to
miss all of you guys this summer and the next years of my life, they all
invariably tell me "Oh! Don't Worry You'll Make new friends." and I
invariably say in return "No you don't understand. I will never have
friends like this again. No one. I mean no one is like any of them. No one will
ever, ever, ever be able to even begin to get near replacing them or being like
them." No one can be like any of you guys. No one can know me like you do,
and no one can make jokes like we do, and no one can be as awesome and close
and as cool as any of us.
I have always been the guy going his own path. Always trying to do things
different and unique. I mean now there is a song. J-E-S-S-E there's no one like
me. And an idea for a shirt. ...Because I'm Jesse....And I know that we all
kind of define me as the "spiritual" guy, but the fact is that
without you guys I am nothing! I am not Jesse Mitchell without you guys. You
make me who I am. Fun and interesting and Strange, and talkative. You bring out
the best in me, because I love you and I know that you love me back either just
the same or even more. You know who I am so well, because you made me it.
Without God's divine grace and your wonderful hearts I would just be another
nobody, another normal, average person with nothing to offer the world. Guys
God's greatest blessing to me, is you. All of you. You challenge me and inspire
me, and make me something more than I could ever been on my own. I love you
guys more than you will ever be able to know. Thank you, thank you, thank you,
thank you, thank you. I could say it innumerable times and yet it would never
be enough. Thank you for all the times of laughter and fun, thank you for
confiding in me and allowing me to do the same with you. Thank you for being
close when I really needed someone and for just listening. Thanks for
challenging me and making me daring and bold, and I pray that even though this
is not a goodbye forever, it is barley even a goodbye at all, that these things
will never change, that these memories we have made together will never fade or
go away. That no matter what we will always be friends. That throughout all of
our lives we will never lose touch. I pray God's blessing and favor on all of
your lives. I pray that He will shake up your lives and lead you to your
greater purpose in Him.
I guess there is not much more time for making home movies, and going thrift
storing, and playing board games, and taking trips to T-Town, and eating Subway
meals. There is not much time for us to be together. There is not much time
left for you to teach me and for me to teach you. I guess all there is left to
say is that I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and even though this is not goodbye forever, I will miss being near you and
being with all of you.
Sunday night I was telling one of you that I never really cried, and how
terrible it was that when I did cry the most I have ever cried was over a book
or something, but I can honestly say that as I have been typing this I have
never cried so much, or so sorrowfully.
Your Everlasting Friend
Jesse
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